Wow! I cannot believe that I have been blogging for FIVE years now. It really is an integral part of my life and the fact that I can turn all the blog posts from any given year into a very detailed memory book for the kids makes it all the more sweeter.
When I look back over my posts from the past year, I usually find a few posts that stick out to me as being particularly poignant and I list them as my favorite posts of the year. Looking back on 2012, very few posts stuck out to me. I did a decent job of documenting everything we did throughout the year and writing about Jake and Jadyn's personalities and interests but I find I did not dig deep or get as personal. I know that part of that is due to the fact that as the kids gets older, I have to be more aware of what I put on my blog but that doesn't explain all of it. I seemed to have taken a step backward, having started to open up in this venue, I find myself becoming more reserved again.
And the fact that the posts that I tend to cherish the most are the ones where I open up and let myself be completely real and vulnerable are always my favorites. The posts that get the most response from others. The posts that I admire most on other people's blogs. It is all the evidence I need in deciding that I want my blog to find myself heading in that direction again in 2013. Because the real me is who I want others to see, who I want my kids to know when then are older and looking through the books that I created, almost like a private journal for all to see.
What I hope to see at the end of 2013 is that my blog is a reflection of all that we are as a family and all that I am as a person. I want it to capture and reflect a growing ability to live in the moment, be vulnerable and free and hopefully discover what I want for my future.
I want to live, laugh and love to the fullest. You can call it my new year's resolution if you would like but that is what I hope for the upcoming year.