How about a little Meme

I had been in a blogging funk as of late, just really busy and not really wanting to spend the time creating posts and not sure what I really want to say, etc. etc.

Well now the funk is over and I am feeling very overwhelmed. I have SO MUCH I want to say and I am kind of not sure where to begin. This is such a busy and fun time of year for us. Spring brings baseball and good weather and reasons to spend it outdoors and both the kids birthdays and looking ahead to summer and seeing what it is going to have in store for us. So much going on and coming up in the next few months.

Since I don't have the time or energy to download photos to catch up on what's been going on the past few weekends, I thought I would just focus on me for a moment. What is going on with me.

On a more superficial level, I have been watching a lot of TV as most of my shows have been winding down with season finales.

- The best by far has been The Vampire Diaries. Maybe some would consider it a guilty pleasure and contrary to popular belief, I do not like ALL things vampire (for example I hated True Blood and the books they were based on and I have NO desire to see Dark Shadows) but Vampire Diaries has some great mythology and storylines mixed in with all the teen angst.

- I am also SO excited that Fox decided to renew Fringe and give it a 5th and final season to tie up all the loose ends and give the series the satisfying send off its loyal fans deserve. I truly do not understand why more people are not watching this show.

- I still have season finales coming this week and next for Revenge, Grey's Anatomy (but not happy with the direction it was headed. I mean really??) and Glee.  I had mixed feelings with the finale of How I Met Your Mother and I don't want to spoil it for anyone who has yet to watch it but let's just say I was extremely happy to see the very last scene play out the way it did and I think it sets things up for a great season next year.

Music - just updated my playlist, although I have gone from 2 to 3. I have my current playlist for the car, the same playlist with a few additions and subtractions for walk/runs and my newest playlist, one for the kids with all the pop music Jadyn especially has started to really get into. So what's new on my playlist?

Burn it Down - Linkin Park
DoYaThing - Gorillaz featuring Andre 3000 (free download on Converse website)
It's Time - Imagine Dragons
Naked Kids - Grouplove
Come Home - Chappo
What are you kids on? - Chappo
Bloody Mary - Silversun Pickups
Headlights - Morning Parade
Some Nights - Fun
Blood for Poppies - Garbage
Heavy Metal - White Rabbits

Books - Between a busy schedule, Joe being gone and all my programs showing first run episodes, my reading has significantly slowed down but I did read Pandemonium, the second in the Delirium series by Lauren Oliver as well as the single the author released entitled Hana. Both were solid sequels but nothing that blew my mind. I also read Magic Hour by Kristen Hannah and Legend by Marie Lu and felt similarly - liked it but didn't find myself raving. However, I also reread Divergent and dived into it's sequel with wildly high expectations, which were absolutely met so if you have yet to read Divergent, I definitely recommend it.

Fitness - with Joe home and the weather getting warmer, I am happy to be able to get back into the routine of going for my walk/runs with Kuma in the early morning before Joe leaves for work. Usually I get back right as the kids are getting up for school. Yes, there are definitely days when I don't feel like waking up and going but I always feel great afterward and I am trying to build back up to being able to run a 5K without stopping to walk but it is a slow process for me.

Which brings me to the less superficial portion of this meme, my continuing struggle with anxiety. As happy as I am with my life, my anxiety is still not 100% under control. For those that have not been through it, I don't know how to explain it. People assume I get anxious over everyday stressors and that it is related to me trying to do too much or putting too much pressure on myself but that is not the case. My anxiety is not over the everyday stuff, which I actually handle quite well. My anxiety comes from a very deep-seated and irrational place and I have yet to fully be able to quell it. But I also have to give myself credit because with a lot of work and a lot of help, I am in a much better place than I was this time last year. While it still frustrates me that I haven't completely gotten rid of it, I am not going to give up. I am determined.

I am also determined to eventually catch up with all the blog posts that are floating around in my head. So be on the look out.