who am I?

Last September, a group of blog-friends from our circle got together in New York. Afterward, they all wrote posts describing one another and what it was like to meet in person after only knowing them through their blogs. It made me wonder how people would describe me. I don't think I have a very distinctive personality or that one particular trait sticks out above the rest. One friend recently said that when describing me to his wife, whom I had never met he said I was a clean freak, opinionated and liked to shop. All true, although I would have to qualify the opinionated statement by adding that although I have strong opinions, I don't think I try to push them on others or judge those who don't share mine. I am also not sure those would be the top three personality traits that would first come up when describing me. Anyway, this is probably my most personal blog post EVER, but I want my kids to know ME. So this is what I came up with:

I am a wife, a mother, a daughter, a sister.

I work in the field of medical transcription.

I have a college degree in psychology

But don't work in my field

And don't know if I ever will.

I love to shop but have no money

I have no money because I love to shop.

I love to read and write.

I love to walk.

Photography is my hobby

Even though I am not very good at it.

I love quirky TV dramas, indie films and alt rock

But appear to be the most mainstream type person you'll ever meet.

I have no style of my own

But am not ashamed to borrow it.

I am obsessed with vampires

But hate monsters

I am an animal lover

Who wants a million pets

And refuses to eat cows and pigs

But have no problem with poultry and fish.

I love to be in nature

But am the most unnatural person on the surface.

In high school, I was named the least biodegradable

Because I wore so much make-up and hair product

And yes it was a cruel thing for my fellow classmates to do

And yes it hurt my feelings

But I still don't leave the house without make-up on

And am addicted to my blond.

I don't drink much

Because I get migraine headaches.

If I didn't get headaches

I would probably be a lush.

I have done some things in my past that I am not very proud of

But I refuse to regret them because they shaped who I am today

Even though I am not always sure of who that person is.

I don't have a lot of friends.

I am not an easy person to get to know

But for those few who do

They know I am fiercely loyal

And would do anything to lend a hand.

I am a self-proclaimed neat freak

Who takes organization to an extreme

But can't be on time to save my life.

I love making to do lists

And the feeling when I complete them.

When I don't have the answer

I search until I find it

Which makes it frustrating

When I can't.

I wish I had infinite patience

But I don't.

Some may view me as uptight

But they don't want to see me unwound.

I love the beach

But don't want to live there.

I love the water

But can't really swim

And don't like to get my hair wet

because then it looks like crap.

I can be selfish

But love to give.

I need a lot of alone time

But crave the company of those I love.

I am a homebody

Who loves to explore new places

I want to see the world

But am terrified of flying

I don't believe in God

But am afraid to piss Him off.

And know I already have.

I am starting to feel old

But have never felt so alive

And so loved

And so blessed.

I am unique.

I am me.